More bad news.Anyone else on here unable to have kids?

So...I had a follow-up appointment to all the tests I have been having done. Turns out I have a lot more than just V to deal with....turns out I may not be able to have kids either.

My Estrogen is low, my LSH and FSH are out of whack....they are too high and one is not in sync with the other (or something like that, it's all very complicated and confusing). Either my pituarity gland is f*cked, or my ovary is f*cked and failing. If my ovary is the problem my chances of conceiving naturally are pretty much zero. And I mean absolutely no offence when I say this, but I really don't think I could bring myself to do IVF because there is no REAL guarantee someone isn't going to fuck up and put the wrong egg with the wrong sperm... also, I can't afford it. Doesn't it cost thousands of dollars? And other personal reasons. I know people will probably say " Well if you are against IVF don't whinge about not being able to conceive"...but hey, it is so hard to get my head around any of it.  I may change my mind later on but at this point I couldn't do it. And I don't think I could have a baby with V....I can not imagine how bad and painful the labor would be

Worst part is I have no idea if my hormone imbalance is related to the V or not. In the meantime I am getting no treatment so I am still suffering V while feeling so fatigued like I have been hit by a train every single day.

I have to take the pill for a month and then after I bleed I need to take Clomifen (an ovulation stimulation drug) and on day 12 go back for a scan to see if I am ovulating via drug stimulation. If I do, it's a good sign. If not, I unfortunately won't be having kids.

And I am still waiting for an operation. Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy to see what is going on inside...possible endometriosis and lord knows what else that could be causing vulvodynia.

Has anyone else had any of these sorts of issues, both physically and mentally?  I just can't get my head around it.  V is bad enough,  let alone all this shit on top of it.

Has anyone else gone through any if this? Any advice would be much appreciated. 

I probably sound like a petty whinging b*tch at the moment and I apologise if it comes across that way, I'm just feeling very confused at the moment.

You know I have.. Never went thru the lap but a hysteroscopy I have. Prepare to bleed a lot... And my pain came back within a week. But hopefully youll get an answer. I'm at work, but let me know if you need to talk- I agree IVF is fucking ridiculous- and god only knows what those drugs do to you. Not good!

Thanks Alana,

This shit sure is exhausting, I don't know how you dealt with it for 7 years straight! How on earth did you get through it without necking yourself?
Are you completely cured now or do you still have issues after surgery?

It just keeps getting worse and worse for me, more bad news each time...more and more problems. Ahhh we are only in our 20's, we are too young for this crap!

Lignocaine is the only thing keeping me sane at the moment. It provides the most effective relief out of everything I have tried, but ATM my symptoms are so bad [like itchy stinging nettles type feeling] that the Lignocaine isn't working too well. I am back on the pill just for the month so I have a withdrawal bleed and they can do an ovulation test afterwards using an ovulation drug, and I am wondering if the pill is making me worse, despite the fact that I am low in estrogen and progesterone, so you think it would be making me feel better rather than worse, giving me a hormone boost? I don't get it. I have certainly felt more exhausted and moody.