WHY ME - Life is so unfair sometimes

So I posted a few months back not long after I was diagnosed with this stupid thing. And I was going pretty well with my physiotherapy and I felt pretty positive. The last few months though I have really let go. Im lucky if I do my exercises once a week. I don't want to do it, I don't see the point when it hasn't helped the core issue (nerve pain) and I hate the fact that I am going to have to live with this for the rest of my life

I've become quite angry at life it's fair to say. I think anyone with this condition would feel similarly - in fact seeing the things you guys write on here confirms I am correct. But I am also anaemic (recently had an iron infusion hoping it will kick in soon) was recently told I am lactose AND gluten intolerant and have had to go on an extreme diet. WHY ME?

I don't see the point in doing my exercises and I'm pretty sure my boyfriend is getting sick of tired/sexually frustrated as I am not allowed to have sex (and have had to start seeing a psychologist as I cannot fathom the IDEA of sex - as my whole sexual experience has been one of extreme pain).

I feel like I am seeing some doctor or something every day. I can barely afford it to start with - adding yet another stress - and it makes me feel so overwhelmed all the time.

This forum was perfect for me because really I just wanted a rant. But another reason I wanted to write is because my gyno recently prescribed me ENDEP (an anti depressant) not for depression but as a muscle relaxant because I'm in so much pain. I wanted to hear of people's experience with this drug - has it or has it not worked? What are the side effects etc?

Please tell me everything will be ok and make me feel guilty about not doing my exercises :p

Saddly i cant say either physiotherapy or anti depressant have worked for me. I have nerve problems and spasm problems for starts plus i have endometriotious which is scar tissue build up which causes cramping diring sex so while i can eat what ever i want i want to saw off my waist and just be done with it. Im sorry to hear all of this has happened to you and somtimes it doesnt seem fair to any of us. At age 18 i wa told i prpb cant have kids and now at ge 22 im told if i do its doubtfull ill survive without being in a coma to avoid the pain. Its ridiculous and i hate it and i wonder what i did wrong for this to happen and all that depressing shit but after 6 years of nt bring able to sit properly ive just sucked it up and said it could be worse

Hello there, Ive never tried ENDEP but I have been on other anti depressants. I tried Gabba Pentin but it didnt work and I couldnt stand the side effects. I was put on Amitryptiline (sp) but that didnt work. Then I was put on Lyrica which helped more than any other med. and the dose was just recently upped by my pain specialist. I am also using Amitryptiline ointment that numbs the skin. You may want to try Lyrica along with Amitryptiline ointment, both of those together may help. Thats just a suggestion and everyone reacts differently to different meds.

I want you to know that Ive asked the question "why me?" and I wanted to know what I did that was so wrong to be tortured like this. Of course I never got an answer. Just as you, I became angry, angry at the world. So I know where your coming from. Just wanted you to know that your not alone. hugs

thanks for the responses - yes our lives suck!

i have endo too sucks as can be quite painful also told I probably wont have kids.. it isn't fair and i listen to my friends talk about great sex and so on and i have no idea what they are talking about!!

they say misery loves company but i guess it makes me sadder that im not alone. i wouldnt wish these things on anyone.

Just a comment on Endo. I know over a dozen women whk have endo and multiple kids some of who were accodents hana. So dont give up hope on having kids i know im not