Failure In The Wife Department

I feel so sorry for my husband. We've been married for 13 yrs. At first I was pretty normal, kinda sorta, I had Bipolar but I was a fun person, happy, life of the party, lots of energy and was healthy in the sex department. After about a year of marriage my Bipolar meds made it so that I hated sex, did not want it at all. So, hubby had to go with out. On top of that I had my ever chaining moods due to Bipolar. Then the Bipolar moods increased and I became suicidal a few times and had to be rushed to the hospital. Then the Bipolar was finally stable. Then the sex came back. *poof*. The only problem is, I wanted it 3 times a DAY. It was like I was addicted to sex. This was hard on my husband and we argued a lot because of it. Then finally the sex smooths out to normal and *poof* another problem. Back pain, shoulder pain and neck pain. Its been about 6 years of constant back pain. So my life was controlled by the chronic pain. I thought that the back pain was bad UNTIL I got that lovely thing called Vulva Lichen Simplex Chronicus, constant burning pain. Oh yes, and lets not forget what peri menopause has done to me. My hair is falling out and my face has broken out terribly.

I went from a happy go lucky, half way decent looking wife, to an ugly, old unhappy person. My poor hubby had no idea that life for us would turn out this way. He probably thought he had found himself a great wife. hahaha. What a joke. Ive messed up 13 yrs of his life.