china pain sucks

coloradolady Tue May 05, 2015 12:32 am

I have always done things differently. I had breast when all the other little girls didn’t, that was middle school for you. When all my friends where becoming women I wanted to have my period, I already had breast. Yes, went to doctor and I was told that being mother would be hard without a doctors help. That there was a larger chance that I would hit earlier onset menopause, and that I would mostly have very painful periods. I start my period when I was 18 years old, it was the night of my senior prom. By the way THAT FUCKING SUCKED! The doctor didn’t lie, my periods where not normal and lasted for ever and painful or so I thought. I was cocky and had unprotected sex and didn’t get pregnant. I was kind of a wild child around the age of 18 to 21. I had gotten myself on probation.
Towards the end of 2005 I found out that I was pregnant and no help from any doctors. Short after I started have a consent pain. A PAIN IN MY CHINA. I went to clinic that Medicaid was paid for. They were not helpful, things that I was told were that I have a UTI, and put me on some meds to help with the infection. No change, still the pain was there. I was just after my first trimester when my mother took me to the ER. I was taken directly to the birth center, I was put on a morphine drip and a catheter (I hate catheters!!! I wish that they were never thought up) I was in the hospital for a week. I went through procedure after procedure. One of them dilated my urethra and burn pulps off my Blatter. I can tell you that I know where my Blatter sit inside of my body and I can feel all the way down to opening of my urethra. I went through doctor after doctor looking at my china, poking, biopsies, and different creams and meds. I tried crystal therapy, and herbal treatment that my parents started paying out of pocket. Nothing was working. I was seeing no improvement. I even had one doctor say that I was a junkie trying to get pill and I was slow killing my baby.
I received a call from one of the many doctors that I had seen and he referred me to a doctor. Okay is all that I could comment. I show up ready for me to be asked can I take a look. He came in and said “Vulvodynia”. Okay, it’s a nerve issues. There was something that we can try. There was hope, at least a little hope. I was put on a low dose of an antidepressants, there was a bit of relief. After the birth of my son the pain just disappeared like nothing ever happened. I would have a flare up here and there but I was able to get through
I moved on with my life. I was a single mother of a baby, three years after my son was born I had everything, even a man that wanted to marry me. I thought maybe it was just a phase. I married him. He is a wonderful man, he has two daughters of his own. I found my little fairy tale.
I have been married for four years and yes it is a great marriage. A health one, he is wonderful. At the beginning of March 2015 I started having flares of pain. I have tried to make it through the pain, it just started to get worst. It is impacting my life in so many ways. And in the lives of my family.
I am wondering if anyone else have had a break from pain and it came back?