Hope some of you can help me

Hi everyone, I am so glad i have found this site and have read through a few of the topics, I'm so happy we all have people we can talk to about this. I try and talk to my friends but they don't really understand and it can get a bit awkward. Here is my story...
I am 27 and have been with my current partner for 3 and a half years. Around a year into our relationship I started experiencing severe pain during intercourse. It was, and still is, a burning sensation that I describe as a red hot poker being put in there. It came from nowhere and for a year i did nothing, thinking it would go and making up excuses for it. I saw an episode of Embarrassing Bodies and someone had symptoms like mine which prompted me to go to the doctor. I knew i wasn't alone and it was a real thing, not just my mind. My doctor was very helpful and i have had various treatments over the last year and a half. I am currently on amytriptaline and it has helped me. I have also had physio which have given me exercises i can do to help. I tend to forget to do these though as i find it awkward and really just hope i can get on without them. we come to now and i still get pain. I tense up when we start having sex and i think it is causing problems now. I just feel so upset when i think about it, i want to enjoy it but now i dont feel any kind of drive to have sex because i know it will hurt and i dont get any pleasure from it now. Sometimes i cry when we try and i feel so bad when we have to stop. My boyfriend has been supportive and understanding, though i think now it is starting to bother him more and i totally understand why. really what i am looking for here, if anyone has read all this, is for people who get how i feel and can maybe help and support me. I just want to be able to feel good again and not like a failure as a girlfriend. I kind of feel at a loss with what to do. I am worried i will lose my boyfriend and dont know how i could possible start another relationship when i am like this.
Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read, and even more thanks to anyone who replies with words of support, encouragement or help.
xxx

I too am glad you found this website. As we sometimes feel we are walking this road by ourselves, as family and friends have no clue how we feel. It is a struggle, but helps when a Dr understands what is going on and can offer you help! I see my Specialist again on Wed, possibly with a new med to try. Here we can offer support and encourage one another not to give up.
You are lucky to have a partner that cares and there are men that just walk right out,


Hang in there.

Thank you! you are right, i know there are men who would have just left and that is my comfort in that matter. To know he is still here, though i feel over time it has started to wear him down a bit. In a way, where is the help for the men? Good luck for your appointment, hopefully if you get something new it works for you! it is what we hope for. I need to get back into doing my stretches and hope that and the amytriptyline will work. I kind of have a fear of if i need surgery and it never getting better. Anyway didnt mean to ramble again, just thanks for the reply and support!