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Hello everyone!

So happy to have found this forum. I have hardly told anyone what I am going through and when I do, no one quite gets it.

This whole thing started almost a year ago now. I have never told anyone, even my doctors, how it happened. I went on a trip to Vegas, drank to much and was sexually assaulted basically. I was in some pain down there like the man injured me. The next day I went swimming and fell asleep in my swimsuit, woke up and felt this awful awful burning. I was sure I was getting herpies.

I became obsessed with checking myself all of the time. The pain was unbearable so I knew there was something wrong. I went to my gyno, in tears and she was a bit rude. Said herpies was not a big deal at all. Well I thought if it feels like this it is a HUGE deal. She checked me out and said she was sure that was not it. I was treated for a yeast infection like many others. She did a test for herpies anyway, both swab and blood because my whole vulva looked raw and irritated. It came back negative but the pain came back in full force.

I went back to see another gyno because mine was unavailable. So happy because she was a life saver. She examined me, had another gynecologist look as well as a dermatologist. They could see that it was very irritated and that it didn't look like an STD. Tested me again and came back clean. Ointments did not help so they sent me to a pelvic pain clinic that is special to my hospital. So blessed and lucky to have had these specialists at my local doctor's office.

Now I am going to PT with a therapist that is amazing. She also suffers from similar issues so she actually understands what I am going through. They say my muscles are extremely tight. They aren't sure why. I assume it was the injury mixed with chlorine and possible yeast infection from swimming. Not quite sure. Maybe a mix of things. The PT is not relaxing the muscles as much as hoped so I am going for a botox treatment in january. My doctor also suggests a nerve block but I am nervous for that so just going for botox first. Has anyone had either one? What was it like? Did they put you to sleep?

Overall I am happy because the pain i felt for the first 4-5 months was unbearable. I thought about and contemplated suicide daily. My work and school suffered. I am in a much better place now. It still is irritating and the pain comes and goes but nothing like what i originally experienced. I have a fear that it may one day return to what it was, especially if I attempt to have sex. I guess I have to take it one day at a time and deal with that day if it comes.

Sorry this is so long! Needed to share my situation with someone.

Hi,
I'm glad to hear you have found some good help.

I have done the botox treatment. I had my injection in Aug this year. It has helped heaps, the muscle pain is gone, i'm just left with nerve sensitivity. I have had to do a lot of dialator work post the botox, but I am now up to the largest dialator 45mins a day. Whether my ability to use that large dialator post botox remains, we will see!

I was put to sleep for the injections, it was painful for a day and then it was gone. It felt very weird to run for a bit, but that is now gone as well.

Overall has been a good experience so far...