Trying to have a Positive Attitude!

Hello, I have had vulvadynia (unknowingly) for 5-6 years. I have read alot of posts from other people who have suffered or still suffering from it. Its been so interesting to see the simalarities in alot of peoples cases! I have had an almost constant internal burning, numb-like feeling down below since the age of 12. I am recently turned 18. At first, like many I think, I was convinced the pain was a water infection or thrush, when the pain continued and results came up negative, I was put on a bit of a downer! I visited doctor after doctor, all telling me it will calm down in a few days. I listened to the doctors and believed the pain was temporary, even though doctors never gave me an answer. As the pain continued and slowly felt worse and more intense, I had more trips to the doctors- all hope still there!!! I was given loads of advice: wear cotton knickers, avoid fragranced products, dont overly clean down there (as am sure you will agree, it can really make you feel unclean), etc etc. I clung onto the advice and followed it to the T. As I got to around 14 the pain still there, I was sent for vaginal examinations at least 4 times that year. Which all concluded I was healthy. You would think it was a relief but I just wanted to know what was wrong with me! As I started to grow more frustrated with being sent from one dr to the other, with no answers. A year passed and I had tried all creams in the book. I was sent for scans which revealed I had polycystic ovaries, I was reassured this wasnt causing my pain. Doctors then tried me on microgynon the contraceptive pill, and later Femodette. Both made me very ill so I stopped taking them. This was to control my hormones however they did not make a change. I was prescribed Gabapentin, which I was reluctant to try. After a few years, I was put in to have investigative surgery as the pain was intense and effecting my mental health and wellbeing. The results came back that I was healthy. At first I was relieved- thinking of disasters that they might tell me. But then the pain set in and so did my disappointment! Still no answers! Before my op, my gynacolagist muttered around the word 'vulvadynia' and said it could possibly be my condition. I have to be honest and say positivity around this subject isnt my strong point and Ive found that difficult! I have had acupunture, physiotherapy to no avail. my doctor said it is unusual for women my age group to suffer with vulvadynia. I am currently going back on Gabapentin and seeing a specialist in January. I have had enough of this awful condition. My head and my body are fed up! I have booked myself a appointment to try attend cognitive behavioural therapy which helps you manage the way you deal with situations. I was skeptical after turning down physco sexual conselling I was offered by my gynaecologist(seem to think its all in your head?), but I would definitely recommend. Thank you.for reading my story. I would love feedback to my massive rant, a big weight has just been lifted!!!

1. systemic yeast?
2. it could be pudendal neuralgia
3. ever had a biopsy taken?
4. does your vulva hurt at all?
5. where is the numbness you talk about?
6. you poor thing, so young! I can relate
7. how bad is the pain on a scale from 1 to 10?

I know what you mean about positive attitude, I'm in my 20s and was so eager to start dating again after a break up from hell
and now this pain happened.
I have vibrating pain, spasms, stabbing, aching. Hoorah !! sometimes it feel as if I had invasive surgery of my labia