contraception and the smear

Hi girls,

I really need some advice. after speaking at length with the lady i usually see about 'down there' we came to the conclusion that an IUD would be the best form of contraception for me. I have have side effects from several versions of both the combined pill and the other pill, The depo causes me to become low on estrogen which causes the vulvodynia to get worse, and due to very sensitive skin i cant use condoms. While I can't currently have sex, I am slightly paranoid about the high rape rates and if my partner and i decide to go further one night when it isnt so painful. However, she herself could not insert it and so she sent me to the family planning clinic. I was seen by a woman who spoke very poor english. I informed her of my vulvodynia, but she didnt seem to understand. I told her that i couldnt have sex as it caused quite intense pain and that i often get a stinging itch and burn. she didnt seem to understand completely and when on to inform me that in order for them to agree to put it in i had to have a vaginal swab done. she then went on to ask me about the smear. I told her that my doctor had advised against the smear as when the "duckbill" tool is opened it causes alot of pain. she didnt seem to understand and pressured me into having the vaginal swab done at least. she didnt inform me that this would involve the same tool, and when she inserted it i told her that it hurt and could we please take it out. she proceeded to open it and while i was crying in pain took not only the vaginal swab but the smear as well. I left feeling like id been attacked and raped. it felt like someone had honestly ripped me in two down there. I am currently trying to get ahold of the complaints procedure but cant seem to find a contact number or anything. I dont know what else to do. I feel horrible. I cant even look a myself down there at the moment and I constantly want to cry. I know I am probably sounding pathetic and whiny, im sorry, but please I need some advice.

Oh no, what a terrible experience! You do not sound pathetic and whiny, you are very rightly upset! Keep trying to get ahold of whoever you need to to complain about this woman. Don't give up. Also you maybe should look down there a bit just so that if you do end up having to report this woman "doctor" you can say if you saw any damage or not....I'm sorry *hugs*