The pill and premarin

Hi everyone. Well, once I changed my pill from Yaz to Minesse - the burning sandpaper feeling inside stopped. Also no longer have horrible pains during ovulation. The minesse was too light (4 weeks of bleeding on the second pack) so I switch to Mercilon. Only one month in, so I hope it goes well. Went to the chiropractor for help with my hip and the opening of my vagina also relaxed after a few weeks of treatment - very little pain when inserting dialators now. Also had very sensitive skin on the little labias - after a few months of using premarin and 2% lignocaine this has improved. I stopped using lignocaine in the last two weeks. Toilet paper doesn't hurt me so much anymore and I can walk a bit without feeling like my little labia is going to shrivel up and fall off. Hope this information helps someone. I sometimes do have a pulling sensation in my left outer labia - does anyone else have this?

On another note - I was a new relationship when this all started and I handled it so badly that I ended up losing a great guy. I'm trying to be strong and get through it but it seems like everywhere I turn it's sex, sex, sex - any advice on how to cope? I'm 31 years old but he's the first man I've ever loved enough to be with and it all started falling to pieces a few weeks later. I waited for that one man and it was so special and now it's all gone. Feeling lost. Any advice or similar story would help. And for what it's worth - I think we're all very brave for getting out of bed in the morning and facing the day. I know one person told me - it's not like you have cancer. Well, yes, it's not. But I still went through a lot with this thing - a lot of body pains and emotional and I'm sure for many of us, it's very difficult. So I do think we're very brave and strong for putting up a fight.

Hi Annie,

I agree it's annoying when people compare it to other pains or conditions - doesn't mean it isn't debilitating! They obviously don't understand.

How are you now? Xx

Annie, I'm so sorry to hear about your suffering. I see some unfortunate similarities in our stories. I understand the birth control cycle. I think my problems all began because of birth control. I've quit it altogether and am feeling better, but still not 100% normal. Also, lidocaine caused me more pain and suffering than anything else. Be careful what you put down there! I had a doctor throw creams and pills at me without testing or culturing, and I just kept getting worse and worse. I've quit using all medications, antibiotics, and anti-fungals, and feel much better (that's not to say don't use those things if you have an infection).

I've recently suffered the break up of my first love as well. We had some problems outside of V, but the issues with intimacy was the catalyst. I'm sorry this is how your first love ended. Experiencing a break up is painful enough without having to deal with V. If you're feeling the same anger and sadness I am, it's sometimes hard to keep going. To be positive, though-- you are still young. Don't give up hope of finding love. Maybe finding someone else right now doesn't even sound appealing, but one day it will. And you'll have the happy, healthy relationship you deserve. Until then, focus on yourself. Look at the silver lining- you are now able to focus on becoming healthy and nurturing your body, without having to worry about someone else. I know this may seem like a weak light at the end of the tunnel, but one day soon it will all feel okay again.