FML - sick of pain :(

I have a pilondial cyst (under the tail bone) which hurts. I am due to see the surgeon in September and the only thing I can do is take anti - inflammatorys when it flares up. I am terrified of surgery and the recovery. I am so scared I cant even think about it at the moment

I have come on my period and was woken up at 5am with more shitty pain! I couldnt do my biofeedback as doing the exercises seems to put pressure on my tail bone area. I have ordered a coccyx cushion which should be here by next week at the latest. I do hope it helps. Im trying to type crying and have cried all my fecking make up off!

Im so scared also of another flare up of V as I have to sit forward now with the cyst hurting. Last time after my period I got such a bad flare up I was given tramadol. I wish I could take it now rather than the anti-inflammatorys but I know I need to stick with what the dr said to do.

All this has set of my anxiety and I feel like I am hanging by a thread and if it breaks they will commit me to the bloody psychiatric ward!!

I hate my body so much, I just fucking hate it!!!!!!!!!! I hate my brain too and right now I just wana say FML!! (Fuck My Life)

Thanks for listening x

Oh Sebby I won't lie to you the recovery from those cysts is long as I'm sure you already know they remove it and then pack the wound bit by bit until it's healed. I know 2 people who've had them and they both said it was gruelling but they were so glad once it was removed and had healed and gone. It's odd isn't it how us V sufferers often have other pelvic pain issues. The only thing I can suggest is biting the bullet and getting it surgically removed, have you had it a long time or has it just appeared? I totally understand how shit you feel I feel like I'm going round in circles, relax the pelvic floor then my SI joints flare up and it tightens the PF all over again. Sometimes it feels like there's no way forward with these things but we have to believe there is. What about taking cocodamol? Can you take that? That can be taken with anti-inflammatories most of the time so it might be worth asking if you can take both? It's very depressing isn't it, one thing after another and no light at the end of the tunnel but try to hang onto the fact you were doing pretty well before when you were doing the biofeedback so you can back to that point again once you've sorted out this other issue. Good luck sweetie and I'm sending you a cyber hug. xx

Oh my gosh Sebby...why is life fucking with us V ladies so much???????

Hugs.

You are in my thoughts luv.

noni

Having the V problem and now this Honey, I am sending you a big cyber hug too.

RIA XXXXXXXX

Thanks my lovlies. I may just bite the bullet Sarah and get it removed. I know how they leave the wound open etc and I think its just that I am afraid my anxiety will just take over during the recovery.

I am trying to think positive as the pain has calmed down both front and back. I ended up with my wisdom tooth playing up this week too and was crying at work on Thursday. Thats calmed down now and Im back to the dentist on Tuesday

I guess I am so highly anxious with it all cos I am having a holiday soon and so dont want to be in pain but something will probably hurt. (will take the tramadol wiv me lol)

Im deff struggling at the moment, Im praying for strength tho.

Love you all x